Whisper x

I’m not going to lie. The boys are playing on their Kindles in mine and Lee’s room and I’m in the bath at 16:30 on a Tuesday afternoon.

Judge me if you will, but I’m a broken woman surviving on the memory of sleep.

Saturday 5th November we were due to go to a firework display with “Auntie” Lisa and “Uncle” Joe. Didn’t happen. Could have managed the drizzle but Ollie was full of bogies and had the “can’t help its”.

Luckily Grandad had left a variety of sparklers on his last visit so we celebrated with those in the garden and some ultimate hot chocolates and warm mulled wine. Well the neighbours went to town so we pretty much had a different firework display from every side of the house and might well sell tickets next year.

Ollie’s fever didn’t break and could only be maintained with Calpol. He also couldn’t eat or sleep which didn’t help his little body in the crusade against baddies.

After another restless night Sunday I was going to keep Ollie off school and work from home. Unfortunately Harry was not in agreement with this and bless little Ollie if he didn’t try to keep the peace by going and getting ready for school. I didn’t have the energy to fight the force that is Harry so just let it happen. Unfortunately I regretted it come pick up time as Ollie came out a broken man who had apparently had had a cry at break time because everyone was just being too loud.

So, today armed with a little more sleep (we’re only talking 5 hours max) I decided to stick to my guns and keep Ollie home. Surprisingly Harry went willingly, think he felt guilty for the day before.

With Ollie being on the floppy spectrum I was able to feed him film after film whilst I got on with work.

Didn’t last. Come pick up time Ollie had an all mighty tantrum. He could not understand why I wouldn’t let him go to school in his dressing gown and slippers. I thought I was kind not making him change out of his pyjamas.

He wandered through the house crying “why? WHY?” Equivalent to any great Shakespearean actor! He cried all the way to school and whilst we were waiting in the car. I wasn’t sure at one point if I was actually banging my head repeatedly against the steering wheel or just dreaming it. Luckily I came to when Ollie uttered “reset?”

I love this! It’s what we do. If we’ve argued or been snippy and just want to start over again no questions ask we ask to reset, have a cuddle and forget it ever happened x

Ooh while I have you, let me just tell you about a few delicious things Harry has come out with,

Harry “ Daddy what is heaven?”

Lee “ it’s the place you go to when you die and you can then look over everyone”

Harry “ no Daddy, that’s spying”

Also I was trying to explain to Harry about what a carnival is (harder than it seems when put on the spot) and even went so far to say you throw money in the buckets for Charity. Well Harry didn’t like this idea at all and felt they should be throwing money at him and he’d be more inclined to go if that were the case!

Don’t you worry, he’ll see! Lee and I love the carnival and sure he will too!

Right, water getting cold and children suspiciously quiet!

Love and hugs xxx