Still here xxx

Yep, I’m still here, but it’s been a humdinger of a week!

With schools closing and no on-tap childcare I don’t know if I’m coming or going.

I think Harry is going through a growth spurt, please let it be that, please let this be a phase as he is Emotional (yes, with a capital E). One minute he’s angry, shouty, punching the sofa, the next he is crying on the sofa under a blanket wanting to be held. I don’t know whether to give him a timeout on the naughty step or a hot water bottle and a Feminax!

Ollie is still a walking bomb of phlegm and vomit although we may have got to the bottom of it! Coeliac Disease and Asthma, gifts from Lee and I, you’re welcome.

We saw a lovely doctor, the kind who genuinely love children and smile at every little thing they do and we’re keeping an eye on him for 6 months . It’s a relief though, at least it’s something manageable, ticks a lot of the boxes.

I didn’t realise how much his health was worrying me. As a Mum I think you’re inclined to pop your emotions in a little box and deal with them another day, a bit like Scarlett O’Hara. Oh hark at me likening myself to Vivien Leigh, that’s a tenacious link at its finest.

The problem with doing that though, the boxing of emotions, is they sometimes leak out at the wrong time.

Thursday lunch time I got a call from the school to say that Harry had been in an altercation and firstly not to worry and secondly Harry was not in trouble. Phew and phew.

Another school boy had grabbed a piece of children’s cutlery and got Harry in the back with it. Hadn’t cut the skin, small graze and looked like a burn.

I was very calm while she spoke to me. Taking it all in and deciding to hold off having an opinion until speaking to Ollie and Harry and getting the full juice.

However I was troubled and by the time it was finally time to leave work and get to my baby I was stuck completing some paperwork that had a deadline and impacted on the wellbeing of my customer. Yes I could have given it to someone else, but I’m a control freak and it was my responsibility to get it sorted for them as I had said I would.

However you should have seen the look on my poor, lovely colleagues face when I asked them to hurry up approving my paperwork because my son had been literally stabbed in the back and I wanted to get to him. The bewildered look they gave me then made me burst out laughing which led them to be more confused. I had to walk away before they signed me up for the loony bin.

All of that shenanigans and Harry breezes out of school without a care in the world happy as Larry, whoever he may be.

Hadn’t effected or affected, I get confused, Harry in the slightest. The school had dealt with it perfectly.

He’s not being bullied, he is okay and it was just one of those things and the school has reacted appropriately and put systems in place.

So we’re pretty grateful for the 5 day break.

The school will be too as it will have given Lee a chance to calm down.

I worked from home the other day. I stopped to watch a squirrel eating nuts from the squirrel feeder Lee and Harry had made together last weekend. It gave my heart a warm boost and makes up for the fact the boys are on their Nintendos at the mo with no intention of coming off anytime soon.

This morning, I purposefully took a few minutes to stroke Ollies head, scratch Tilly’s tummy and indulge in one of Harry’s engulfing cuddles before properly getting up. Capturing the moment. It was still only 05:45.

Life is whizzing by so fast, days are merging in to each other. One has to intentionally stop, breathe, relax and most importantly enjoy. I try to make every day count for something x it’s why I take so many photos. Little splurts of happiness from every day and reminders.

Love and hugs, kisses and wishes xxx